Get off your Ass Nicole

Ok. This is bullshit. I am 13 months postpartum and I still look 6 mo pregnant. I need to get with the program. I have always had issues with my weight. Along with most women in America. But at the same time, I consider myself healthy. I eat whole nutritious foods and exercise. I run an average of twice a week . Plus the 1+ mile walks I take daily at work. As a family, we try to be outside as much as possible, walking to the park or riding bikes. I know I need to do more, but shit...I am not sitting on the couch eating bon bons. Okay maybe I am sitting on the couch drinking my wine, but you get what I am saying.

I just wish I was even at least pre-pregnancyweight. And now here we are planning on babe #2. I would like to lose at least 10lbs before my next pregnancy. I have never lost 10lbs in my life. So I need a plan. And I need to stick to it. I will update on here.

First Dance 2002

Hubby made the most wonderful playlist for a road trip we took a couple of weeks ago. I was listening to it this evening while following Evelyn and I's nightly routine. then I heard it. Our wedding song. our first dance. I remember him coming through the door one day exclaiming, "I found it honey. I found the song that shall be our first dance." Okay...he didn't use the word shall, but you get my drift. Tears instantly came to my eyes. I cannot believe our wedding was 6 1/2 years ago. I am so madly and deeply in love with my husband and THIS song brought it all back... our first dance.

"I'll Catch You" by The Get Up Kids

can you sleep as the sound hits your ears

one at a time

an unspoken balance here

unabridged for so many years

That I should stare at

receivers

to receive her

isn't fair

don't worry I'll catch you

don't worry I'll catch you

don't ever worry

your arms in mine

any time

wouldn't trade anything

you're still my everything

to my surprise

before my eyes

you arrive

don't worry I'll catch you

don't worry I'll catch you

don't ever worry

still breaking old habits,habits

you pulled the wool over me

and I can see everything,everything

remembering jinx removing

don't worry I'll catch you

don't worry I'll catch you

don't ever worry

no need for reminding

your still all that matters to me....

A new job (passion)???

Evelyn's birth changed my life. I absolutely loved being pregnant and loved giving life and love being mom. Even after her birth, I am still obsessed with birthing and babies. I have become a birth junkie.

I am very unhappy in my current job. I have felt trapped by it for some time now. I earned my Master's Degree in this field and feel for some reason that I have to stay in my current field... just cause I am suppose to.

But I don't feel that way anymore.

Evelyn has given me the strength and the power to change my circumstance.

I have decided to become a Doula. A labor assistance to other women. I didn't even know what a Doula was until I decided to make my journey into un-medicated natural (normal) childbirth. My Doula was the rock I needed to birth Evelyn. I know I can be that for other women. I am passionate in this venture. I am going to make it my new job.

Wish me luck!

My daughter

Evelyn.

is so amazing.

thank God for her.

i loved life before.

but life now is exquisite

i didn't know it could get better.

wow!!!

I'm obsessed

I am obsessed with blogs. 

So now I am starting my own.

I always have little thoughts, little comments, little pictures that I want to journal. 

Now I can.